A little bit of nothing really….

To Quote Britney: “oops, I did it again”. I promised myself that I would stop all the partying and late nights, but instead I went on a pub crawl and the next night I stayed up till 3ish… Why do I have absolutely no self control?

Just over two weeks until holidays. I cant wait, purely because I get to see my friends and family again, mostly my dog. Yeah, im counting down the days (18 fyi) and I said I would not do that, I would live in the moment… but Im bored of the moment… I want time to fly.

I have not taught for a month now and its become too natural… any one know of a man I can marry who will support me for life? hehe.                                                                              I have a full week of doing nothing, again… its finals now, so they’re all writing tests. I have not been told that I wont be teaching, but they haven’t told me for the last month, so yeah… I assume.

The festival is on this week too, but only comes alive at night, so I haven’t seen the full thing yet… SO this king nari fest is a heritage festival, its beautiful, so many lights and flowers…. dancing and tons of stalls.They opened it with a giant parade which lasted about three hours. Then there was plays and shows etc. I avoided it because I hate watching the animals being ridden, literally just makes me cry, like on the spot I just burst out in tears. I Have had many a people casually walk away from me as I am wiping tears away from my eyes. hahahah.

On the bright side, the new shipment of teachers will be in next term and all the negative old teachers are leaving- yay. Not that they are bad people, gosh no… beautiful hearts but too much drama. So im so thankful for the upcoming change and new adventures.

Sadly, a few of my good mates will be leaving but if they are true, they will stay in touch. If not, they influenced my life, taught me a lesson and are continuing on their path… no hard feelings. 🙂 so that’s all for now… 🙂

xoxo

 

 

 

LEAVING MY COMFORT ZONE TO ENSURE CHANGE.

There is a certain amount of beauty in the comfort zone… its familiar, safe and well… predictable. Which, at times, is exactly what we need. It is however exactly what I was trying to escape when I packed my bags and travelled 10 hours away from home.

The first three months here were most definitely out of my comfort zone, new people, new places, new experiences and I was so happy. I have not felt that sense of freedom and excitement for a long time. However, everything has an expiry date and I began to settle again, I got used to my town, got used to my routine and got used to the people I saw every weekend.

 

yup, I have a new comfort zone. DAMMIT!! Even they way I approach new people has reverted back to my old, lame way. “hi, hehe… um, I gotta go”

I was thinking about all this one night when I desperately needed sleep. I decided right there and then to change this before I begin to build up walls again and become a social recluse.

 

I have had a wall up for MANY years, but I have worked on tearing it down BY MYSELF…. yup…. Only I can make myself happy… yes people can contribute to my happiness but they will not determine my state of mind. I learnt that the hard way,  yay personal growth. 🙂 This took a few years and I’ve been wall-free for a few years now and its been amazing!!!!

 

ANYWAY…. I am still young (ish) and wild and free and intent of spending this time living the life i want to live… doing the things I want to do… no regrets.

That being said, I am going to make enemies, I already have made a few just by befriending different people…. will that stop me? HAHAHA no! I’m done pleasing everyone…. don’t get me wrong- I’m not going to go out and be a douche to you to make myself happy…. I still believe in being a good person and minimising hurt and suffering. But I will not sacrifice myself anymore to ensure someone else is happy.

UNLESS ITS AN ANIMAL- I WONT EVEN LIE.

So this is me publicly declaring my escape from the comfort zone that I have developed…. Change is going to happen- I am putting it out there.

That’s all she wrote!

Happy new year 2561

oooooh yes, I saw this and thought I was in the twilight zone. 2561.

Thailand uses two dates, 2561 and 2018. something about epochal dates or Buddhist calendars which are 543 years ahead of the Gregorian calendar I’m accustomed to.

Any way.

 

So new years here is a huge celebration; lanterns and fireworks, alcohol and dancing. Same as home. the difference is that they give gift to wish you a happy new year.

That’s new to me. So after my 7th gift I decided to go get books and pens and write A LITTLE NOTE to say happy happy. I feel so awkward when they thank me for the gifts. Its so small yet I receive HUGE smiles and lots of wai’s.

I don’t know if I got enough lol, but least I did what my mommy would have told me to do.

Thanks mom 🙂