A little bit of nothing really….

To Quote Britney: “oops, I did it again”. I promised myself that I would stop all the partying and late nights, but instead I went on a pub crawl and the next night I stayed up till 3ish… Why do I have absolutely no self control?

Just over two weeks until holidays. I cant wait, purely because I get to see my friends and family again, mostly my dog. Yeah, im counting down the days (18 fyi) and I said I would not do that, I would live in the moment… but Im bored of the moment… I want time to fly.

I have not taught for a month now and its become too natural… any one know of a man I can marry who will support me for life? hehe. I have a full week of doing nothing, again… its finals now, so they’re all writing tests. I have not been told that I wont be teaching, but they haven’t told me for the last month, so yeah… I assume.

The festival is on this week too, but only comes alive at night, so I haven’t seen the full thing yet… SO this king nari fest is a heritage festival, its beautiful, so many lights and flowers…. dancing and tons of stalls.They opened it with a giant parade which lasted about three hours. Then there was plays and shows etc. I avoided it because I hate watching the animals being ridden, literally just makes me cry, like on the spot I just burst out in tears. I Have had many a people casually walk away from me as I am wiping tears away from my eyes. hahahah.

On the bright side, the new shipment of teachers will be in next term and all the negative old teachers are leaving- yay. Not that they are bad people, gosh no… beautiful hearts but too much drama. So im so thankful for the upcoming change and new adventures.

Sadly, a few of my good mates will be leaving but if they are true, they will stay in touch. If not, they influenced my life, taught me a lesson and are continuing on their path… no hard feelings. 🙂 so that’s all for now… 🙂

xoxo

What goes up must come down.

I have basically been reliving my early twenties, problem is my body doesn’t recover like it used to. NOPE! She is shouting at me constantly… “BITCH, IF YOU’RE TRYING TO KILL ME, I’LL KILL YOU FIRST”

Yup, these constant flu-like symptoms are getting worse by the day. Yet I continue to drink and stay up late.

The problem is, even though I feel like warmed up poo, I cant stop… well I don’t want to… I want to socialise, I want to stay up late and sing and dance and chat…. its what I stopped doing in SA cause I was over it, but now that im in a new country, new vibe- I wanna meet people and do these “young, stupid things”….

I just wish I felt better after the epic nights.

Any suggestions? 🙂

Still have my vindictive personality….oops!

When I was younger I always wanted what I couldn’t have and did what I was told not to do. ” You can have any book, but not comics” so I wanted the comics. ” Don’t touch the walls, you will make them dirty” so as I walked past I would graze the wall with a finger.

I thought it was a phase, a rebellious young gal going through hormonal changes

or something but alas, it never passed. Even in my 20’s ( goodness, I never thought I’d refer to my “younger days”) I would be told rules at work or get told to date certain types of guys to ensure I would be treated correctly… well that did NOT happen haha!!

Well, I thought that Thailand changed that, I became so calm here, I conformed to their rules and became determined to be a good person- UNTIL WE DO SHOOTERS!!

My obsessive need to have what I cant have kicks in and I become a vindictive brat! literately!!

so, as much as id like to disclose the happenings that resulted in such a vague blog, I still need time for things to settle, for people to forget ( please let something dramatic happen soon) and for me to accept that I need to control my self… 🙂

SO, I need to do a lot more meditating and stuff…. never to late to work on improving yourself, right?

Living for the weekend…

Have I fallen into routine again?

One of the reasons I left SA was because my life was on a loop. I had a routine and I never seemed to be able to get out of it.

In Thailand, everything was new and I became so adventurous. There was no routine because I was so unsure about everything, where to go, what to do…

However, now that I work daily from 7:45-4pm Monday to Friday, I have developed a tad routine–

7:40 –> rush to work, always late… why??

8:10–> go to Nooms for coffee and food.

11:00- come back for a class ( oh, you want to cancel my class, again? okay..)

11:10–> facebook till I hate people, bug Lithuanian friend, Thomas. Maybe go for another coffee

14:00–> come back to the office and then wait for teacher training.

15:00–> waiting for teacher training.. why is everyone avoiding eye contact?

15:30–> realise they are not going to attend class.

16:00–> pack up awkwardly, are they judging me?

16:10–> walk out the office and do a weird wave and bow to say bye.

16:30–> home and relieved… wait, whats for dinner?

17:00–> nooms? yeah, why not….

18:30–> movies in bed. shower first of course.

22:00–> bed time… well face book and instagram till I hate people more.

soooooo, really boring!

I now live for the weekends. Weekends I meet up with friends for drinks, we tour, we sing, we laugh, we travel…… I get that that is life… but I don’t want to be so bored during the week!!! I want to love every minute like I did the last three months.

Maybe its time for a country change?